The 3 major presentations are over... ICP, FoM and OC....
Really spent alot of time doing these projects... sigh... hope my effort will be worth it...
I really got closer with my group during these times when we were doing our projects..... Especially to Timothy who... really carried me through...
I guess I sometimes go a bit overboard sometimes... I never had a really really close friend before... and... sometimes I just get on his nerves... I can tell.. I'm so sorry...
I just feel that... I'm crushing him to much.... squeezing him until he cannot breathe at times...
He is just too nice...
Sometimes I can tell that he is really angry an frustrated with me... but he refuses to say... and.. that makes me really sad at sometimes.... I wish I could control my emotions better...
I know I'm not worth to be his friend... I'm just too useless to be his friend... I'm just happy that he treats me as his friend... I wish.. that I could be good enough sometimes...
He's... smart, nice, good looking, has alot of friends, happy family, close to God... He's everything that I wanted to be, and everything I hoped I could be... In short, he is the perfect example of somebody I wanted to be...
Haiz... and... he wants to change group... I polarize alot... but... he really impacted my life alot... I really dont want to let him go....
Sobz... I really would do almost anything to keep him as my best friend... but I cant restrain him...
I treat him closer then a brother, more then a counsellor...
and somehow.. nowadays I feel that he is starting to dislike me......
No matter what migh happen in the future... I will always try my best to treat him like a best friend should...
Timothy....
haiz......
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